The Him - Her (part 2)

A lonely walk down this black road.. I can't see anything in front of me.. Where am I? I lookedaround, trying to judge where I am. This is neither the normal world, and it doesn't look like Hades, and I am 100% sure that this is not heaven.. There is just a flat landscape around me, with no trees or anything, and no one around. There is no color in this world, just greyness, like black and white mix together. Sort of like those oldies movies. Maybe this is the resting place people always said that the dead will go before judgment day? That is even better.. at least I am dead.. As what the Japanese will say, death is as light as a feather..when the wind blows, it just carry you away..

I am not feeling any fear, any happiness or any emotional.. just simple emptiness. Maybe that is how a dead person would be. No emotional, no nothing.

And then suddenly, "HEY!" a voice sounded from somewhere behind me, and then followed by a stream of light laughter. "You ignoring me now, huh?" another giggle.I turned around, towards the direction of where the voice is coming from, and my emptiness collapsed.

Clara

She was giggling at me, and her eyes were bright, like the morning stars. Her hair was silky straight, and softly dancing with the wind. She had a white dress on, and this time, she looked.. angelic. NO. She is definitely an angel! From heaven! Maybe I was in heaven! I ran towards her as fast as possible, and my emptiness was replace instantaneously by joy. PURE JOY. I have never been so joyful in my life before, and then suddenly, the greyness disappeared , and the world was suddenly full of color! More beautiful and more lively then what you get from HD tv. The sky is blue, the landscape is green!

When I finally reached her, I was panting softly. "Clara.. Clara.." I touched her hand. Once more, my emotional changes drastically. Happiness, gone.


Her hand was cold.. too cold.. and her skin is white.. too white, like those dead people kind. All of a sudden, the smile dissapeared, her eyes were no longer sparkling. Her expression was sad, too damn sad, fountain of tears was pouring out from her eyes.. again the surrounding changes back to greyness.. and this time, the wind picked up strongly, maybe a speed of Beaufort scale no 10. "why did you wreck our future.. why did you greed.. why did you do things without thinking.." she whispered softly..

"Clara, I can explain.. Please listen to me!" I pleaded. But it was as if she did not hear my pleading at all. She continue to cry, and her voice was getting louder, and louder.. like someone turning up the volume knob slowly.

"Why did you do things your own way? Why didn't you think of me when you make the decision.. Why? Why?" She was literally talking loudly now.

I tried to match her volume by shouting back" Please Clara, let me explain! I really -"

"WHY ARE YOU A JIERK! WHY DID YOU WREK THE RELATIONSHIP THAT WE WORKED SO HARD TO MAINTAIN??!" She bellowed. "I HATE YOU!"

I tried to run towards her, but she seems to be drifting away. I tried to run faster to cover up our distance, but I never seems to be able to keep up.

"CLARA! I AM SORRY! COME BACK! COME BACK!" I shouted with tears streaming down my eyes, She mean everything to me. "COME BACK COME BACK! " I shouted till my voice went hoarse.

And then, BLAM. I felt my face exploded in pain.