rewind time

Ever wonder if you could rewind time? Like for example something bad happened, and how you wished that you could go back into the past, do something different, so that the bad incident would not have taken place. Or another contrasting example, something good happen! And how you hope that you can rewind time, go back to the past, and make the good thing happen over and over again, you just want to stay in the past, in the dream, not wanting to come back to reality. You want the time to stop for you, you want to enjoy life!

Sometimes I really wonder, if God gave us the ability to rewind time, won't we have a super blessed life? All the wrong decisions we made, we just go back to the past and adjust it.

Take for example, an incident that happened to me. I thought I could report to camp at 9am this morning due to some incidents that took place, but when I was leaving my house at 7.30am, my ns friend asked me where am I, and when I replied that I was still at bedok, I found out that I was supposed to report to camp at the usual time, 7am. I was super scared, as my camp is super far from my house. I immediately flagged a cab in a hurry and cab all the way down. Thank God, nothing happened to me although I was late.

When I was on the cab, I was really hoping that if I have the ability to rewind time back to yesterday, I could have advoided all the hassle and troubles.

But then again, if we have the ability to do it, will we still need God? Will we still need to rely on Him? I don't think so. Humans in nature are not perfect being, thats why we are below God, we need Jesus to die on the cross for us. The bible describe us as "sheep", and God is the sheperd. If you know how a sheep is like, you will certainly know that sheep is one of the most stupid and blur animals ever! Without a sheperd, a sheep is always lost, always will be preyed by wolfs.

I thank God that we don't have the ability to rewind time, or in that case, perfect being. Because of our imperfection, we can come to rely on God, we can rely on Holy Spirit to guide us, and we can experience God's abundance blessing and witness His faithfulness time and time again! And most importantly, we have a Father that will accept us for who we are, what we did. His unconditional love.

I believe in our life, nothing happens Coincidentally. Everything happens for a reason, whether whatever happen is good or bad. I will praise God for whatever happens in my life, if it is good, I will praise Him for His blessing and His love. If it is bad, I will still praise Him, for I know that He is moulding me, refining me, and His love that will be there for me. When something bad happen, I will praie God, for I know that if I rely on Him, God will lead me to victory, I will be able to witnessed His faithfulness again!

I should not have did something during my BMT time. Though it was just a simple conversation on the sms, it lead to much complicated stuff after that. It even came to a point where I was tempted to break the 2 years convenant I have with God. But God reminded me that He still remember the convenant that I have with Him. I turned back and focus on God. And God took away the distraction, took away the thoughts.

Though it is painful, and I really regretted doing what I did in my BMT, - how I wished I can get back to the past and do the right things! - I am praising God, I will still praise God! His faithfulness in my life and His care for me never fails. It is painful, but it is an awakening moment for me. God want me to honour the convenant, and I will do it. A lesson learned, but I will not trade anything else for this lesson, as God has used this lesson to remind me again that He want to be the first in my life.

My life is for You God, let Your glory shine on me.